It’s a long time ago but in many respects that first shift is still fresh in my memory and it all came flooding back when I read this great piece by Deepak Chopra: My First Job: My Dark Night As A Real Doctor
And while I don’t remember all the nurses by name I remember all their kindness, support and actions that helped me survive the grueling assault course of medicine.
In the end, after six years of studying, medicine was turning out to have too little to do with healing and making people happy. It had to do instead with my work in the hospital, into their lives, pronouncing a few of them, the most unlucky ones, as expirations. I thought about myself a lot before I forced myself to sleep, but, on reflection, I didn’t think about my patients much. We had all met and parted in a few moments. It would have been hard to look at them directly.
Even though a patient may be aware that his condition is perilous, he may yet recover because he has faith in the goodness of his physician…I will keep pure and holy both my life and my art.
Practicing medicine as we do now makes a doctor’s life as nerve-racking as a soldier’s. It consists of an endless struggle to conquer disease, and to keep at this, a doctor must deny to himself that disease, and to keep at this, a doctor must deny to himself that disease ultimately wins. If you feel called to practice medicine, these are not the kinds of thoughts you permit yourself. But doctors do face up to them from time to time and wonder what the work is for
People forget what you said and what you did but they remember how you made them feel
— Nick van Terheyden (@drnic1) November 4, 2013
As Deepak Choopra quotes:
Rejoice at your inner powers, for they are the makers of wholeness and holiness in you,Rejoice at seeing the light of day, for seeing makes truth and beauty possible.
a physician must trust in Nature and be happy in himself
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